Wednesday, July 16, 2008

This is for my Auntie


I’ve ignored my blog most of this summer.
Not from a lack of wanting to.
But from a lack of time.
I’ve been busy immersing myself in Chicago
With love.

I’ve spent time with old friends.
And with new friends.
And my girlfriend,
whom has lived 1100 miles away for the last 9 months of school.

I’ve immersed myself in my internship at DDB.
I’ve been working late nights,
Pre-sunrise early mornings
And loved every second.
Heck, even got a decent amount of work produced.
Although, I’m hoping for more.
Call me greedy.

And to be honest,
I’ve been busy enjoying all that.
And not writing on my blog.
Mostly on purpose.

But around 4am this morning
I found out that none of the above really matters all that much.
Who cares if I love Chicago,
Or my internship?
Who cares about art exhibits,
Cool concerts
Or deep dish pizza?
Who cares about the late nights?
Summer festivals
Or hot dogs without ketchup on ‘em?
Who cares about any of that?
I sure as hell didn’t around 4am.

B/c at 4am,
I found out that my Aunt Mae died from complications.
A huge part of my life,
A huge part of who I’ve always been
And always will be
Is no longer with us.

That love/hate relationship I have with the Brandcenter
I’ve recently found holds true for advertising in general.
That is, sometimes you’re too busy to experience the world
And conversely, sometimes you’re too busy to let your world affect.
Too busy to be anything but numb.

But tonight I refuse to let this be the case.

Tonight, I’m gonna take some time.
Tonight, I’m gonna reflect.
Tonight, I’m gonna pay my respects to a lady
who always cared about unconditionally.
A lady that never judged.
Always smiled.
Always sacrificed everything she had.
And always loved.
She deserves that.

Here’s to my Aunt Mae.
I’ll love you forever lady.
And thank you for everything.